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Breaking a pattern

2012-2014 has been an interesting yet challenging time. It has challenged my faith beliefs and shook my very core. It featured heartbreak, change, disappointment, love, regaining faith. I had to relearn my value, and pull out my roots and replant them and be unsure unstable and vulnerable. It brought me back to God, back to His love, His everlasting protection, mercy and compassion. I'm still afraid though, of losing Him I need Him. Every second of every day. I need for the connection to remain, I am desperate. Regardless of the loss and heartbreak al hamdulilah I am grateful and optimistic with Him you can only be so. I'm rekindling my passions, calming my nerves, pampering myself, taking better care of it and learning to love myself the most. Hopefully I will take you on a journey with me that you may be able to relate to. InshaALLAH the journey will encompass new adventures, a positive attitude, food, travel, love , success and tons of positivity! Just t
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Heartbreak 101

So I just got my heart broken... What a weird way to start a blog, sounds like a cliche too.. but oh hell So for the past two weeks i've been carrying around this constant ache but being grateful that I didnt fall apart. I strongly believe that the reason I didnt fall apart is my faith in Allah which He blessed me with. I always knew He had my back :) As for the person responsible for the heart break ironically He was the person who healed it. Strangely enough before I met him I had met someone else and it was strange because he made me feel like no other man has broke down my walls (around my heart) and I felt it beat again.. shortly after he was gone I felt raw, naked, and vulnerable which I haven't felt in years. I don't believe in coincidences so I strongly believe that Allah has sent me these two individuals for a reason. But I begged, ya Allah don't make anyone's love in my heart greater than yours. Personally I think that that right there is th
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Diary of the Culturally Dysfunctional III

. I'm still referring to men.. the ones we think are "suitable" suitors.. guess again.. talk to the man before you go deeper into getting engaged and married .. do you really want to marry a man who's experienced with other men? or boys? or a man who has had intercourse with so many women all over the globe..safe or not.. and comes nice and polished to your doorstep in the image of a knight in shining armor? I truly pray that all my girls get good men and everybody out there! because only ALLAH knows the real them.. not even their parents! and dont bother asking their friends.. they're just going to keep their mouth shut cause its their "CODE" I do not mean to demonize men and sanctify women, women have their crap too! but i'm simply placing what I have seen and heard first hand from guys.
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Diary of the Culturally Dysfunctional II

Ok so here are some of my thoughts on men in general.. most of them men i've met are sweet and kind... but does that really determine how good they are? First of all let me suggest what is my idea of what a "good" man may be. *well he has to be respectful to himself and to you and other people of course. *To be open mined..and please openminded does not mean liberal there's a difference!It also requires no judgement,tolerance and acceptance! *He has to be generous, I do not necessarily mean monetarily but generous with his emotions it is not enough for a man to take you out to nice restaurants and pay a hefty bill. It is not generous when a man does not wish you a happy birthday or congratulate you on getting a promotion or winning an award. Its not generous when you dont show appreciation, its not always necessary to literally say thank you but sometimes a look or a gesture of appreciation that makes you feel that they liked the gift or the surprise party you
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Diary of the Culturally Dysfuntional part I

First of all I'd like to note that "culturally dysfunctional" a term invented completely by my best friend/sister/soul mate. However I believe it perfectly describes the both of us. Its not easy being a third culture kid.. on the outside you look a certain way and people treat you according to a stereotype even some friends. That made me realize that people see you the way THEY want to see you.. only your real friends see you for whom you really are. They see your flaws but they also know what makes you..you.. they never misjudge you even if they argue with you and always give you the benefit of the doubt.. they always encourage you to follow your heart and not give a rat's behind what other people think because they see you no matter what your actions are. So being culturally disfunctional comes from basically not really fitting into the cultural mould you are "meant" to fit in. So for me being what I am makes certain people treat me a certain way..either b
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