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Heartbreak 101

So I just got my heart broken...

What a weird way to start a blog, sounds like a cliche too.. but oh hell

So for the past two weeks i've been carrying around this constant ache but being grateful that I didnt fall apart.

I strongly believe that the reason I didnt fall apart is my faith in Allah which He blessed me with. I always knew He had my back :)

As for the person responsible for the heart break ironically He was the person who healed it.

Strangely enough before I met him I had met someone else and it was strange because he made me feel like no other man has broke down my walls (around my heart) and I felt it beat again.. shortly after he was gone I felt raw, naked, and vulnerable which I haven't felt in years.

I don't believe in coincidences so I strongly believe that Allah has sent me these two individuals for a reason. But I begged, ya Allah don't make anyone's love in my heart greater than yours.

Personally I think that that right there is the reason I didn't fall apart, al hamdulilah Allah answered my prayers. This helped me stand back on my two feet and try to move on.. slowly but surely.

Don't get me wrong i'm not super woman I'm still in pain and I miss him a lot but I know and trust that Allah has a plan for me and a great one! Al hamdulilah.

Almost turning 30 really doesn't mean much to me because I feel 12! Really I choose to stay this way because counting age is only going to make you older.. on the inside and I'd rather be carefree and childlike so that I can enjoy life as it comes inshALLAH

Again of course i'm not always like that there's always that responsible adult in my brain that grabs on to that child and scolds it but the adult has calmed down recently.

So anyway as I figure my heart out and wait out Allah's plan inshALLAH i'll keep y'all posted.

I know that what i'm sharing isnt profound but if it can help or ease at least one individual's heart then i've reached my goal :)

salam (Peace)

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